Spiritual ADD

I don't know if I'm the only one who gets this way, but sometimes I think I forget that God loves me. If you were to ask me I'd tell you I know he does, but sometimes my head remembers what my heart forgets. It usually happens about once a month or something like that. I start looking at my life and I see how crappy of a guy I am and how much I fail. So I try to fix myself and be good or whatever and I inevitably fall short of the mark I was aiming for. So then I get all depressed because I'm not good enough. And somewhere along the way I forget that God still loves me. I don't know why I shrug off that fact. I realize that the thing that sets a follower of Jesus apart from the rest of humanity is not that they're moral or rupublican, but that they are trying to live in the fact that God loves them. And I don't know why sometimes I forget that. I don't know why forget that God is still desperatly in love with me and desires a relationship with me and I can't be good enough to get there.

The great thing is that God always reminds me. Sometimes I'll hear a song or have a conversation or see a sunset and I hear God telling me, reminding me that I'm still his. He's not through with me and he's taking me through this. And thats good. Not always easy but good.