Hows it going? I hope everyone is doing ok. I havn't posted anything on this for a while. I get these moments of insight, but most of the time they come to me when I'm in the shower, on the toilet, or in bed. Maybe I should get a porcelen thrown and put it at the computer desk. Or i could just carry around a toilet seat and put it on my chair whenever I sit down. Anyways..

I've had a few interesting things bouncing around in my head lately. Or maybe just one. And it's mainly that I don't know if I know God. Its kind of a scary thought. I grew up in church; if anyone knows God I should. But I got to thinking if this is a relationship I should know the other person. I have other relationships with my friends, my girlfriend, my parents, and such. I know them. But I don't know if I know God.

Well thats been a while and now I've come to the conclusion that I don't really know God. So now what do I do about it? I want to know God, but how do I go about it. I grew up reading the bible, but I read it like it was a manual or something. How do I read this book and find a God who is alive? I don't know. I guess what I'm asking is how do I begin to take God out of the philosophical/theological construct that I've alway viewed him as and begin to see him as a real living somebody? I don't know how to do that.